nothing else matters

all that matters is how i get through the next 10 days
if i get through them that is
if i survive through then - wow - i know im the same person, only stronger and surer
if i dont get through them - then i know im paralysed for life
kidding!
the only thing that matters is - the goal, the purpose
thats all that is on my mind
its an obsession
a mad passion
driving me, motivating me
im numb to everything else
fear anger love longing
nothing else matters




for now or maybe forever

run to where?

aao huzoor tumko ,sitaron mein le chaloo,
dil jhoom jaaye aise , bahaaron mein le chaloo ,
aao huzoor tumko sitaron mein le chalo
dil jhoom jaaye aise , huzoor aaoo

u can move on
u can forget
u can become indifferent
but what do u do with the memories
what do u do when u cannot listen to a song without figures dancing in front of ur eyes
what does one do when every little thing is a constant pointer to something that was and isnt anymore
how do u reconcile with the fact that something that was the world isnt even worth ash anymore
how do i sort these feelings of angst and anger and violation and love
run i will..but where..and from whom...and until when?

can one ever move on
if there is anything called love
does one really get over it
can one love again